So, I know I haven't posted in a while, and I'm way over due for pictures and fun family stories and all of that, but this is not going to be one of those posts. Sorry. I just sort of need to vent my thoughts into space at the moment.
I had one of those crazy days yesterday. I cleaned the house, kept up with the kids, made dinner etc. nothing unusual, but I was feeling very short tempered and emotional and overwhelmed all day. I couldn't figure out why I felt so overwhelmed because I was fairly on top of things, nothing major waiting to be done or anything, but I just couldn't shake the feeling. The more I thought about it, the more I realized it wasn't really the tasks so much as just everything I am trying to be. Sometimes I just can't fathom how to be a good housekeeper, a good wife, a good mother, and a good Diane all at the same time, you know what I mean? I'm sure I brought a lot of this on myself with too many new years resolutions. I really need to stop doing that to myself. I need one thing at a time to work on or I just feel like I'm suffocating under my own pressure. It really is all me. My husband doesn't expect anything more from me, my kids are amazingly loving and forgiving of their very flawed mother, but I can't help but expect more of myself, because I know I can be better, but I just can't do it all at once...even though I wish I could. Maybe this doesn't make any sense and I'm just rambling, but its just what I've been thinking about.
How do you all find balance? How do you do the mom stuff and the wife stuff all the time and still be the best you? Every once and a while I figure it out, but I always lose it again. I don't know...If this doesn't make any sense, just ignore it. haha.
I don't want you all to think that I'm unhappy. I'm really not! I love my life! My husband and kids and ward and family and everything are better than I could ask for. Its just the balance thing I'm working on at the moment. But I'll figure it out. Thanks for letting me talk it out. :)