A couple weeks ago, we went with all of Beth's joy school friends and parents to the zoo for our final joy school of the year. It was tons of fun. My particular favorite was the bird show, but James was totally obsessed with the elephants, and Beth just seemed to enjoy taking it all in, and being our map reader. Haha.
A few days later we went with more friends to the Thanksgiving Point farm country. The kids loved that too. Beth rode a pony and everything, she was so excited by it! I have pictures, but I left my camera at my friends house so all the latest pictures are trapped inside. I'll have to share more later.
On a side note, sorry about all the blog slacking. I've been feeling kind of overwhelmed by life. And when that happens, I have the tendency to want to curl up in a ball somewhere and avoid everything, but since that would not be my wisest decision, here I am.
I don't know why I have such issues with getting overwhelmed, but I really do. Whenever there is too much going on in my head, or too many things I feel like I need to work on, I can't seem to just break off a manageable bite, I have to try and swallow it whole and it makes me insane. Why is that? Then, when I'm completely overwhelmed I end up doing nothing and feel like a total failure. It really isn't a great cycle. I just haven't figured out how to break it yet. I'm sure its something we all deal with from time to time, and I think I've even talked about some of this before on the blog, but I cope better when I can just send my thoughts out into the void, so bear with me. How do you balance being a good mom, a good wife, a good housekeeper, a good spiritual being, a good human being, etc. etc. etc., all at once? How do you find ways to find time for yourself to get some balance while still interacting with your kids, and at least having enough clean clothes to wear and dishes to eat off of? Every time I feel like I'm doing a little better in one area, I realize that some other part of my life has completely fallen apart in the process. I just can't seem to balance all the plates all the time. I know I don't have to be perfect, thank heavens, cause that would be impossible, but just getting by in each area would be nice! The last couple of weeks I've just felt like I am about to fall apart at any moment. I hold it together, my kids still seem to like me, although we've watched more movies lately than is probably healthy. But I just hate feeling like I'm losing control of everything.
I know in reality its not that bad, I know my blessings are innumerable. I have felt completely surrounded by love lately. I suddenly have friends coming out of the woodwork and people reaching out to me that I never expected, and for that I am truly grateful. My kids are great, sure, they are 2 and 3 and we have plenty of moments, but in general I am very lucky in that area. My husband is just the best thing ever. When I was having a particularly hard day this last week he randomly bought me a dozen of the most beautiful purple roses to cheer me up, he's so good at that. Then he takes care of the yard and cleans the kitchen and makes cookies, I mean, how much luckier can I get? I'm so lucky to live in my neighborhood, in my beautiful house, to belong to the choir I sing in that gives me an amazing spiritual perspective every time I attend, to be surrounded by family that loves me unconditionally, no matter how many things I fail at. Life really is good. I'm just having one of those very human moments. Anyway, sorry for all the deep wallowing, I just needed to say it. :) Love you all!