Friday, February 12, 2010

MOOD SWING!

This is just a fair warning to all of you innocent bystanders out there, I am in full on mood swing mode over here. I think my family is scared of me. Today has been better, only one random crying spell (while reading a thank you card, seriously), but the past two days were pretty bad. Yesterday I melted down into a full on sobbing fest and bawled into my pillow for a good several minutes and then left to run errands and cried and cried in the car while driving to Walmart. Sheesh. Part of that meltdown was because of all the previous mood swings that had caused me some bad mom moments so then I was feeling guilty on top of emotional, bad bad bad. I guess all the hormones on top of all the discomfort and the fears of how I'm going to handle another kid when the ones I have send me off the deep end on a regular basis are just boiling over! Don't get me wrong, I am WAY excited for this baby, I can hardly stand it, the countdown is constant in my head, I just sometimes wonder how its going to all work out. I think I will be home bound forever more after she comes! We'll probably save all sorts of money cause I'm not taking all the kids to the store ever again, I'm quite sure of it. ;) The baby preparations are definitely all done, I bought a few more diapers and one newborn outfit yesterday, I'm nervous that if she actually does come 2 weeks early all the clothes I have will be too big, so I think I have a grand total of 3 or 4 newborn outfits now (can't be too optimistic that she'll be smaller than her siblings.) I was reading in my pregnancy book today that it was a good time to pack for the hospital, but of course that is advice for people who actually go into labor, so I'm going to try and hold off a little longer. I'll probably do it next week so that I'll be ready at my next appointment in case the doctor wants to get things moving then (optimistic thinking again, but manageable at least :) ). Every time I sit around at this point just hoping my water will break so I can just get the waiting over with, but I've never had that luck before, so I'm sure I won't again. So anyway, the gist of all of this is I'm impatient, as usual, moody, and uncomfortable, so be warned. Please let the next 21 days go fast (or let the doctor move me up)!!! If anyone has good suggestions for passing the time, bring them on!

p.s. Thanks to my wonderful husband and my great neighbors who have helped me and the kids through these last few days and who will continue to help me for the next few weeks and after the baby comes, I don't know what I would do without you, truly!

5 comments:

jennybrum said...

You are a fabulous mom, and trust me you will leave the house again! I can't wait to meet your new little princess. We will keep our fingers crossed that she comes soon! Let me know if I can help with your kids.

Jon, Amber, Caleb, and Skyler said...

So...here's some ideas! A friend just had an early c-section...she had Body Talk done on her, and the baby came a week later. Water broke for the first time (4 boys) and it's exactly what she wanted. Another friend is doing essential oils to get her body to bring her baby early. I've never done these, but apparently they work! Check into them...

the emily said...

oooh, bummer diane. i hope you get feeling better really soon! go get some ice cream or something, that always cheers me up!

Tiffanie said...

I feel the same way when I think about the baby coming--I am so excited for a new baby, but unsure of how I will be able to manage it. I want him out so bad on some days, and others think it is just easier to keep him in there forever:) I used to be a lot more patient when I just had two, and feel guilty on some days when I am not so much. I am trying to take it day to day and know that it will be an adjustment of course,but every baby before that was too. With my third it was difficult at first, and I wasn't on time for anything for a few months, and worried about going anywhere. But eventually we all got into routine, and that got me comfortable again. Honestly, whether you have 1 or 5...they are little kids and any outing can get scary:)

Dan and Donna said...

Diane, You will make it....I know you will. I'll be there soon and will try to make things a bit easier for you at least for 10 days. I remember thinking how will I make this with 7 children under 11 and you know what? You all turned out great and I am still sane (I think)...Of course you were number 8.....Go for ice cream like Emily suggested!