Saturday, October 9, 2010

Transformations

We've been undergoing a lot of transformations around here. First, lets talk about the floors!

Our carpet has always bugged us, its scratchy and always looks bad, even when freshly shampooed or vacuumed, then some bumps started to form in it. James loved those bumps so his cars had hills to drive on, but to say they drove Ryan crazy is an understatement. So we contacted a carpet guy we know through Ryan's company, and had him come to see if he could fix the carpet, then of course we decided to have him bid some improvements. Once we did that there was no going back!

Before. Doesn't look too bad in the picture, but trust me.

Part of the carpet torn out, and then original entry way, I actually liked the tile, but it had to go to make way for bigger things. :)

The tearing out efforts.

What happens when you don't listen to your mommy and you step on tackless barefoot.

New entry and hallway! And all the carpet in the living room torn out.

And new carpet! This carpet is super plush and soft and fabulous. We lay on it because it feels so darn good! Plus, I love the color it was a last minute change and I'm so happy we picked it. Now if only we could afford to replace the rest of the carpet in the house with this beautiful stuff...

Our house feels like new and I totally love it! You'll have to come see and feel it to truly appreciate it! :)

Next transformation? Me! Okay, so you all know I've been on the lose weight bandwagon for sometime now. I stopped doing my weekly posts because I was stuck and frustrated and going insane. I finally realized that until I got my head in the right place nothing was going to change. I was too stressed and emotional about the whole process, which it turns out was working against me, go figure. So a week or two ago I decided to surrender. Not give up. I'm not gonna give up til I win. I just had to surrender to the process. I read a book called "The Gabriel Method." Its a little out there, but the philosophy and ideas in it were just what I needed to hear. Basically it says that until we learn to talk to our bodies so they understand what we want, they are going to hold on to fat. And, its not about depriving yourself. Its about enjoying your life, finding your passion and believing that you can do and be whatever it is you want to. As far as eating goes his philosophy is that your body wants nutrients, and its not about calories as much as nutrients so as long as you begin to add those things in, your body will realize its not starving (because it is when you eat empty calories, even if you eat 5000 of them) and let go of the fat its hanging on to. So I can eat what I want and crave as long as I also include the nutrients it needs, and over time my body will realize what it likes and start to change my cravings. But, no more "bad days" or "good days" just feeding my body and enjoying it. That's what I had been trying to do, but feeling guilty about it, so now I feel like i'm backed up on this idea and that I can do it. Its also all about mind over body and imagining what you want and knowing you can attain it. I seriously feel better already, because I believe I will get there. I've stopped beating myself up and freaking out because I'm not where I want to be right now, whether its in my weight or other aspects of my life. I've stopped looking at all the parts of me I don't like and dwelling on them, I just think about what they will look like someday and move on. I'm not perfect and its not fool-proof, but its working for me. I'm not going to stress over a scale, I'm just going to do what I think is best for me and get on with my life! First step? I ran the Wasatch Woman "Love Your Body" 6k this morning. It was a good experience. I felt healthy and carried by all the women out there (1800 of them!) who all have body issues and who just want to love themselves. So, here's to loving myself and moving on and worrying about more important things like my family.


So, here's to transformations! May they keep coming and may I keep growing (or shrinking as the case may be :) )!

5 comments:

the emily said...

It looks great! And so do you. Congratulations!

Summer said...

I like the Love Your Body shirts this year. Long sleeved is nice! We like your carpet, too.

BensonFam said...

Great post my dear. And congrats on your race!! Barring any more major back problems (or perhaps a baby...) I will join you next year! :)

jennybrum said...

You are beautiful and you have three gorgeous kids that were created by that body of yours, so you can be proud to love yourself just the way you are! Give yourself some time...and enjoy every minute with your cute kiddos! We are going on vacation in four days! Hooray!!!

Jon, Amber, Caleb, and Skyler said...

I love the floor! It looks great! I'm sure things will work out over time. That is one thing I'm not doing: I can't deprive myself of things I love eating because then that's all I'll want and all I'll eat. Good for you on doing what you think is right!