Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Whirlwind

The last few days I have been feeling totally our of whack. I think its mostly because I've been pretty cooped up since the surgery. I run kids to school and and errand here or there, but I haven't been able to get out away from kids at all. My night vision is horrible so I can't just run away from home for an hour in the evening like I used to do on occasion when I needed a break. I haven't been doing Lia Sophia since I can't drive to shows either. I feel like I'm sitting in the middle of a whirlwind watching my life fall apart and I can't do anything. I can't get on top of my house work, my laundry, my menu, my weight, my exercise, my kids... Its really not that bad. Its not like I live in a war zone or something, but I just feel like i'm flailing a round in life right now and I have got to buckle back down and figure out how to run my life so its not chaos all the time! Anyone have any tips? I wish I could just hire someone to come in and clean and organize my house so I could start from scratch. (and maybe a live in nanny and cook while i'm dreaming!) Everything in its place. Then maybe I could take a deep breath and jump back into my life with both feet.

Its hard not being able to see well too, I think that's a big part of it. My eyes really are getting better. Usually when I wake up in the morning I can see great, then it just fluctuates throughout the day. The more tired I feel the worse it gets, so usually by evening I'm a grumpy blind person. Right now as I type this everything is pretty distorted...so excuse any major typos! But, I know I have to stop making excuses and just dive in to life.

I know this sounds awfully whiny, and I don't mean to be a whiner, seriously. I know how blessed I am! I have blessings pouring out my ears! My life is great. My husband is amazingly helpful and supportive and loving. My kids are great and happy and healthy and smart. Its just that I feel out of whack and out of control right now. I just really need some tips for balancing everything. I know that's the magic question everyone wants the answer to, but if you have any helpful ideas, please give them to me!!

1 comment:

jennybrum said...

Sorry things are rough. Let's plan a girls night!!!