Sunday, July 31, 2011


James is my boy. I'm so blessed that I get to be a mom of a boy. Its so different to being a mom of girls.

He's so full of energy, and creativity and mischievousness!
When he has a favorite thing, whether its a toy, or color, or food or whatever, he knows it and he cannot be swayed!
He would live on cold cereal and milk for every meal and snack if I'd let him.
He jumps when he's excited. And he's excited a lot. He must have the strongest calf muscles around.
He's a bit of a fraidy cat. Though he's improving. He's afraid of animals, heights, and swings to name a few. But, like I said, he is improving, he's nothing like he used to be in that regard.
He knows exactly how to push his sister's buttons!
He was the worst potty trainer in history. But he's finally trained. Knock on wood.
He is quite convinced that all sorts of interesting things happened to him when he was 2. Apparently I don't remember all these crazy things.
-For instance, when he was 2 he: got shot in the foot, was an astronaut, rode in a Viper...
I hope he gets a job someday that uses all his creativity. The stuff he comes up with astounds me.
He is all boy, all the time!
Although, he doesn't particularly like to be dirty. That's a little odd for a boy.
He's a contrarian. He cannot agree with anything anyone says. Which is why he thinks he's a Ute fan. Come on now! (Although his favorite song to sing at bedtime remains the Cougar Fight Song! I have not lost that battle.)
He still loves his mommy, and I really hope it stays that way for a long long long time!

I'm so lucky to have him! Love you James!

I need help!

Okay, one crazed mom to a million out there in the blogosphere...

For those of you with "spirited" children, or "fiesty" children...aka CRANKY children, how do you deal with it?!

Kate is such a handful. I love her more than life itself, let's just get that out there first. There is not question about it. I have a special bond with her that God in Heaven knew I would need to survive her! But she is so tough. I feel like I'm in a constant state of frustration trying to figure out how to keep her happy and healthy. She's been my toughest sleeper, my most clingy child, and my most emotional child. Beth and James were delightful babies. They both have their moments as they get older, they both have their tough phases, what kid doesn't? But Kate has been tough since she was two weeks old. She cries. A lot. I literally had a melt down the other day because she was crying and the thought came to me that she has probably cried a significant part of every day since she born. That's 17 months of crying. No wonder I'm at my wits end!

Kate seems to only be happy when she has 100% of my attention or some really good distraction. And sometimes that's not enough. Which is tough since I have a two other kids, a house, a life, and a calling at church. I feel like after my other kids were born we had an adjustment period and then life got back to mostly normal. I could handle housework and all that. But now I'm at a loss. Every time I clean or do something else productive, mostly when its a desperate situation, she follows me around crying, and then screaming, until I sit down, preferably on the floor and pay attention to her. That makes it hard to get things done! I have let a lot of things slide because I do realize that her happiness is more important, but I can't let everything go all the time!

Now, don't get me wrong. She is not always sad. We have lot of good moments. She LOVES to play outside, go on walks, take baths and be out and about. She can be hilarious playing "i'm going to get you" and other popular family games. Sometimes she'll play well on her own for a while, and of course there are naps here and there. But there are just a lot more moments than I would like that are sad or whiny or demanding and screaming.

What I really struggle with is the fact that she puts me on edge and then anything my other kids do can push me over. So I feel like I take out my frustration on them because they are older. I don't know how to help Kate, but I know how to punish Beth and James. Its bad. Its bad parenting and it makes me feel awful. I feel like my fuse is always lite and just waiting to blow. I hate feeling wound up. I feel like I miss a lot of moments and opportunities because I'm too close to my breaking point. I know that in general I am not a bad parent. My kids know they are loved, there is no lack of "I love you's" or attention, or affection in our home. Ryan and I teach the important things, and in general I think we've done ok so far. But this is not working right now. Does any of this rambling make sense? I just felt like I needed to call out to all of you wonderful mom's out there that I know struggle with the same things. I need to feel like I'm not alone in this scary world of parenting.

How do I deal with her so that I can stay calm and collected for my other children?
How do I discipline Kate's misbehavior in a way she understands?
How do I keep her happy and still accomplish what needs to get done in my home and life?
How do I give her what she needs without completely draining my personal reserve?

*sigh* Life is not all bad. I really do love my life, I'm sorry if this is coming off as complaining. Motherhood is what I wanted for my whole life, and I wouldn't trade it for the world. I can't imagine my life without any of my kids, even Cranky Kate. ;) I just want to be the best Mom I can be, and I don't feel like I am being that right now. I'm trying. Any advice is appreciated and welcome!

Thursday, July 21, 2011


I love getting the kids pictures taken. Its totally stressful, and the actual process is sometimes a nightmare, but I love the results. It always makes me fall in love with my kids all over again. They are so stinkin' cute! Here are a few of my favorites from our photo shoot today.

We went to FotoFly in Draper, I haven't done a studio shoot with the kids in a long time, so I thought it would be a fun change of pace. The photographer was great with the kids and even got my cranky Kate to smile for a few pictures! Haha. I'm really happy with how they turned out.

Here are so funny ones. Kate was full of funny facial expressions today!

Are they cute or what?!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

Making Changes

I've been in change mode at home lately. I'm dying to redecorate, so I've been trying to pick one project at a time to work on. My most recent task has been decorating the top of my kitchen cabinets. I haven't had much at all up there since we moved in and its always bugged me! So here are pictures of what I've done. I still need to fill out the basket a little bit, but I'm happy with how its coming together. I found the painting at Ross the other day and it just inspired me and the rest came together. Yay!

Any tips of making it better? Or any general decorating tips? I'm not really very good at it, but I'm trying!

Monday, July 11, 2011


I feel the need to do a spotlight on each of my kids. I think I mostly need it to remind myself how lucky I am with these 3 kids, sometimes its hard to see the good through the nit-picky little things that get in our way so often. So, here is a short list about my sweet Beth.

She is affectionate, almost to a fault (she got in a trouble a few times for kissing too much in preschool, and sometimes a personal bubble is a concept you wish you could explain to a 5-year-old).

She LOVES swimming. She's in her second round of lessons this summer and doing great.

She loves to sing and dance. We've taken a break from dance lessons for a while, she wants to try gymnastics next, but she is always dancing around! She loves to sing too, and is always making up her own songs. Its quite cute

She would play with friends every second of everyday. I'm pretty sure I was that way as a kid. Its fun, unless we don't have playdates and then she gets bored fast and drives me a little nuts. Haha!

She starts Kindergarten in less than 2 months! I can't believe it! Ah! She is SUPER excited, and I have to admit, I am too! I'll probably tear up, but I think it will be fantastic for her.

She is also quite insightful and very tender hearted. Sometimes she bursts into tears because of something she learned at church, or because she misses a family member that lives far away. One night I found her crying in her room and when I asked why she said "because I love Jesus so much and I was thinking about Him and I miss Him." Sweet huh?

She is great at saying prayers. They are so sincere and she thinks to pray for things that I would never imagine a 5 year old thinking of. Last night she prayed that she would be able to not whine while she was waiting for swim lessons to start. Haha! And she prays for our widower neighbor on an almost daily basis. She prays that he will be happy and not feel lonely. Its the sweetest thing in the world.
- On a side note, I will never forget the first time Beth saw that particular neighbor after his wife died. We were at church and she was asking me the whole time to go talk to him. I of course made her wait until the meeting ended. As soon as it did, she booked it across the room to him, climbed on his lap and wrapped her arms around him so tight. She just sat there and hugged him for a good long time. He was crying, she was crying, everyone sitting by them was crying. It was one of those beautiful, sincere moments when you really see that amazing soul shining through. I hope she stays that compassionate her whole life.

She reminds me every day to appreciate the little things. There is something so amazing about seeing the world through the eyes of an ever eager 5 year old. Everything is spectacular to her, from the way the sun makes something sparkle, to how her dress twirls, to how delicious a cheese sandwich can be.

Oh, and did I mention she is GIRLY? Dresses, dressups, hairdos, lip gloss, barbies, jewelry, and anything that sparkles or is pink are high up on this girl's list.

I can't say I am always happy with her, or that I am always the best mom to her. Sometimes her clinginess drives me a little mad, and she is NOT a neat child, leaving me frustrated with the messes a lot of the time, and she is very much in the thick of the tattling phase, but I don't know what I would do without her. She is extremely helpful, and she loves me unconditionally despite my faults, which are SO many, especially when it comes to motherhood. I'm so grateful to have her. My life changed forever the day she was born, and its definitely been for the better.

So, when I complain in future blogs, know that underneath I wouldn't trade her, or any of them, for all the riches in the world. :)

Friday, July 8, 2011

Back to Blogging

I just read a post by my funny cousin Emily about blogging. She quoted another post from here. And I had a total "Ah-Ha!" moment. I realized that is exactly why I love blogs and facebook. It totally creates a sense of not being alone in this world of mommydom. It made me want to to rededicate myself to my blog. I post on facebook frequently and I think that is why I have neglected the blog, because I feel like I've said everything, but its not true! So even though I know I don't have a ton of readers, or a ton of commentors (hint, hint). Back to blogging I go! :)

Here are a few summer moments I have enjoyed so far: (I don't have a ton of pictures lately cause my camera is being a little weird)

Kate's first corn on the cob, she loves it just like the rest of the family!

Popsicles with friends, well, popsicles in general, they are a favorite at our house, even with mom. Thank heavens for the little popsicles they make now so Kate can be in on the fun with all the MESS!

I'll post updates on the whole family soon. Thanks blogsphere friends! :)