Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Gratitude

This week I've spent a lot of time dealing with things I'm not grateful for. In particular, bills, bills and more bills. Hospital and Diabetic supplies are EXPENSIVE! I've spent a lot of time stressing about this and related topics lately. I've found myself grasping at straws for things to be grateful for, and that is exactly when I realized it's time for my annual gratitude post. I have found a lot of times in my life when I was struggling that counting my blessings was the #1 way to lift my spirits and make me realize that I am a truly blessed person. So, in no particular order and just as they come to my brain, here are a few things I'm thankful for:

My husband. I really couldn't ask for a better man. He works like crazy all day and then helps me out all night. He never hesitates to let me get away from the house and regain my sanity, and he is an expert dish doer and floor mopper. He is my constant source of comfort and strength and I could not do any of what I do without his support. I love him!

Doctors. As expensive and frustrating as they can be. This year they saved my baby girl's life and now they are helping my son to live the best life he can with a difficult disease. I'm pretty fed of with bills, but I will pay them every time because I know my kids are healthy because of them.

Beth. She is a joy to watch. I truly have never met such a compassionate, loving, caring, and emotional 6-year-old. She is so tender-hearted and spiritual. Something I really hope never changes about her.

James. If anyone had told me a year ago that my 'fraidy cat James would be dealing with diabetes and being amazingly strong about it, I wouldn't have believed it. Of course it is hard, and he has his bad days with it, but he has really taken it on with amazing strength. He is tougher than me and I am very proud of him. I really think this will be a great thing for him, as much as I wish I could take it away.

Kate. This girl has absolutely turned out world upside-down. There are definitely days I wish I could sell her to the gypsies, haha, but she has increased my patience and my capacity for love. She makes every day interesting and she forces me to interact with my kids more than I would naturally do, which I know is good for all of us. She will make me a stronger person, of that I am certain! I love her so much.

My House. Ryan and I talk about moving a lot, just making our dream home up in our minds mostly, but I really do love my house. We are perfectly comfortable and we have space enough for everyone. Its great for entertaining or just hanging out as a family. Its warm and comfortable and safe and I am always grateful to be so lucky.

My Neighborhood. I really can't say enough good things about it. I've never lived in a neighborhood this close knit. I've never been able to count on my neighbors like I can here. I know I am appreciate and loved and that I fit in. I know that there are people thinking of me and people that would drop anything to help me, at any time. They have shown me that over and over, particularly this year. I don't know if I could actually ever move because I love it here so much.

My Family. I have the best extended family. Both my own and my in-laws. I don't know what I would have done without them through our recent crisis'. I feel supported and loved through everything. And I have amazing examples to look too. I'm lucky.

My Friends. I'm not going to name people, because I would inevitably leave someone out, and the list is too long. But, I have the best friends in the world. These people are my neighbors, my long time friends, my new friends, my facebook friends. They support me, they encourage me, they commiserate with me, they watch my kids, they listen to me complain, they listen to me triumph, they inspire me, they motivate me, they help me change, they run away from home with me, and they laugh with me. I really would be lost without them. I would definitely be insane without them. I need friends every day, and there are so many I can call on. Thank heavens for friends!

Sterling Singers. For those of you who don't know, Sterling Singers in a community choir of 300+ singers. I joined in the Summer of 2008 and have never turned back. Every practice is like fuel for me. Sometimes I have a hard time getting ready to go, rehearsals are on Sunday evenings, but every time I am so glad that I went. I laugh, I cry, I stretch myself musically and spiritually. I love performing with them and changing lives. I feel like its made me a better person by just being a part of it and hearing the inspirational words of the songs and the spoken words at our performances. I love it.

My Church. I wouldn't be who I am without it and its teachings. I am far from perfect at following those teachings, but I try. My heart is in the right place. I know that my Heavenly Father knows me and my trials and He listens to my prayers and is trying His best to help me understand what I need to do to be successful in this life, and with my family. I have LOTS to learn, but I know where to turn to learn it and that gives me a lot of peace.

Modern Medicine. This kind of goes along with doctors mentioned above, but I feel like mentioning this specifically. Today Kate has been sick and struggling with her lungs again. I am grateful that I have the medicine at my finger tips to give her relief. I am also grateful that James will be starting on an insulin pump this week. It will be a new adjustment for us but he will have to endure much fewer injections and I'm grateful for that. And I'm just grateful for the advancements in Diabetes treatment in the past several years. Life will be better for him that any other generation of diabetics and I'm hopeful they will even find a cure or an even easier way to manage it in his lifetime. We are lucky to live in this day and age. I often think about what my nurse told me when I was in labor with Beth. When it was discovered that she was in an undeliverable position and I would need a c-section, the nurse told me that 100 years ago Beth and I would have both died. There was no other option.

Well, there are a million other things that I am grateful for. I truly am a very blessed person. But, as this post is getting rather long and wordy I'll end here. Happy Holiday season to all of my friends. I hope you take the time to count your blessings too!


And just as a good ending to this post, I recommend watching this music video. I cried and cried. My trials are hard, but I am grateful for them, and I'm also grateful I don't have other people's trials!

1 comment:

the emily said...

Hurray for insulin pumps and asthma medicine! You really should be grateful for you house. I promise you it could be SO much worse. :)